

I have to say though, it is beautifully written and densely packed with writing that is so skillfully and poetically written, it doesn’t make for light reading. I have really enjoyed reading your memoir. Maribel Garcia: Tucker, first of all, thank you so much for being with us today. The boys had animal fat when making the sacrificial offering, setting their tunics ablaze. Still, even this message didn’t seem very genuine to Tucker, he goes on to say that if he had to give the talk today, he would rationalize it as simply, a bad fire. After some rumination, I said something like God is upset when you do a half-assed job. I was still a year or two away from figuring out my own queerness…still, I had to give a talk to the congregation. To my thirteen-year-old self, the passage seemed to caution against religious innovation.

Lieberman’s refreshing spiritual insights, his unorthodox positions on Judaism are both funny and deeply meaningful. They made an unauthorized sacrificial fire and God immediately responded with a bigger fire, one that killed them. In his memoir, Lieberman suggests that what went wrong was the fact that Nadab and Abihu improvised during the sacrifice.

Aaron’s sons Nadab and Abihu then offered additional fire to the Lord and the two of them were consumed by the presence of the Lord and completely overwhelmed by God’s greatness, died instantly. With all of the people gathered, God revealed himself in glory and all of Israel fell face down and shouted with joy worshiping him. In this portion of The Torah, all of Israel is being gathered to witness Aaron making a sacrifice to God. On the eighth day, Moses called Aaron and his sons, and the elders of Israel. It was bad enough that Tucker had to wear a dress and worry about tripping on account of high heels, but there was also the question of the portion of the sermon that he was supposed to read: For Tucker Lieberman, this was two years before he would take the first step to pick a new name for himself, one that would reaffirm the gender that he wanted to live in.

For many Jewish teenagers, this coming of age ritual ceremony marks their journey towards adulthood, signifying new social and religious responsibilities. Imagine being thirteen years old, and being called up at your Bat Mitzvah, summoned to recite the blessings before and after the Torah reading.
